Sometimes I stumble through my words
ending in places I did not expect- not really
sure what it was that I said. Sometimes I stumble
to days quick and without end not really sure
what has happened. And it leaves me feeling
unguarded sure that I broke the rules simply cause
I once again forgot what they were.
It leaves me feeling unguarded and like I’ve betrayed
myself by showing my life and my heart to the world.
I want to be in a place where I trust me enough to
say what do without fearing I haven’t thought long
enough. I want to trust me enough to know I did
what I needed to – even when it’s hard to tell the days
apart. and to look back in pride instead of fear that
I should have said less, I should have said more
I should have done less, I should have done more
I’ll never be enough to the core.
And while writing all of this. I know I am already
so much less trapped in the cage that I feel that
the very steps that I take are mistakes and yet-
it’s so easy to go back to that.