In the train, I thought of all the times
I sat there before, going back and forth
learning so much being so busy with
being competent yet never too much,
being noticeable, but not too eager,
being hardworking and at the same
time being no work at all,
and it is perhaps the internship-
trap that most girls fall in and
yet it reminds me of other times
and other things. It doesn’t always
matter to know what you want,
and to be small enough not to be
a burden, sometimes, you simply
can’t have what you particularly
crave for.
It doesn’t mean there aren’t
great things that come unexpectantly,
It’s just that you can know and
say what you want, and others can
say no. And that sometimes hurts
and sucks, and can feel so heavy
and yet- not just suffering is part
of life, freedom is too. The freedom
to dream– of great things, joyfully-
even when you won’t see them real
anytime soon.
In the train, I think of how far I’ve
come since that first train ride
with my sister the exquisite idea
that in one afternoon you could
go to another city and back,
it taught me that perhaps, anything
is possible. Even though we’re
physically stuck in time, our bodies
and minds can travel all dimensions.